I’m SORRY, my BELOVED PAPA

I wanted to apologize to my DAD as I vented my temper to him this morning… I feel so REGRET but I don’t know how to say SORRY to him now as it’s already passed… and I feel odd if I just apologize to him all of sudden now…

As usual, I rushed down from my room and grabbed the breakfast (normally peanut butter toasts) that my dad would prepare for me before I go to work every morning (He’s a VERY GOOD DADDY, I really do LOVE HIM). I was happy because it was different breakfast as he made burger with egg for us~ BUT, when I checked the ingredients of the burger; I found that he spread PEANUT BUTTER for the BURGER!! I felt quite disgusted and I just yelled at nobody asking WHY THE HECK IT’S SPREAD WITH PEANUT BUTTER FOR THE BURGER??! I kept grumbling in the kitchen and my dad came in and asked WHY? CAN’T IT BE EATEN? I was angry as he always likes to COOK UP his own weirdo food…! Then he said NEVERMIND, I WILL EAT IT. And he wanted to make another one for me but I told him I would make for myself and I kept grumbling too… then he went away and just ignored me… only then I realized I was wrong… sigh.

That’s ME, part of the typical ME. I can be very EASY with anything, but when I suddenly got mood swing which I don’t know when it will be, my bad and hot temper would come very fast even I couldn’t control it myself… but after that, I would be regret if it’s my fault. Then I would find many ways to compensate…

Lucky thing is – I don’t vent my temper to friends or anyone else except… I will only show my real temper to my family, my very best friends, and my soul mate as I know THEY UNDERSTAND ME and MY TEMPERAMENT.

MY TEMPER COMES VERY FAST, BUT IT WILL GO VERY FAST TOO. I need someone who can understand me and by my side patiently, who can also guide me in many things, and remind me of my bad temper/habits without feeling irritated whenever I make mistakes… BUT I know it’s not easy for me to meet that special someone.

Anyway, this is my apology blog to my papa, not about myself.

爸爸，對不起。

Moody...

gosh.. I was thinking and composing many blogs in my mind... but WHY the HECK I can't write anything now...???! damn...

Nevermind, I will update again soon~ when I'm really AWAKE for blogging~ hehehee.... (^.*)

ja ne~ oyasumi~

Hairdo: PERM or STRAIGHTEN?

I wanna do something to my hair…

I wanted to cut it short, but I can’t do that because this is the first time I can keep such LONG hair~ as I always cut it short when my hair reached the length to my back :P I had no idea why was that so but it just happened. So~ I wanna break the CURSE~ not to cut it short again this time and keep it LONG~ hehehe….

Hmm… so, it’s better for me to PERM curly to my hair?? Or to STRAIGHTEN my hair?? Many say I got the SEXY & WILD look with curly hair, or even withOUT curl... but I don't want... I prefer INNOCENT look, like ANGEL... :P hahahahaaa.... but somehow, they say My look is already like that... "HOW YONG", especially my eyes... doushou.... shikatanai na....

Ish ish… comment comment plsssssssss m(_ _)m

一個人生活 & 兩個人生活

I got this forwarded article, somehow it touches my feelings... as some are similar to mine; but mine, have other more complicated feelings...

Who understands me...?

一個人生活 & 兩個人生活 = 兩個自由的人因愛結合而產生的所謂『摩擦』

星期日，一覺睡到下午2 點還不願起床，我在旁邊叫喚他。「起床了好不好？我們出去走走，去吃東西。」N遍之後，他仍在睡。
我下樓去，走到公園時，打了他手機，我想，這下，他不得不起床了吧？ 響了好幾聲，他終於接了電話，只是他告訴我的是：「妳讓我過我自己想過的生活好不好？」

突然間，我不知該如何回應，倖倖然掛上電話後，一個人坐在公園裡，有點茫然有點不知所措，那麼我自己的生活又是什麼呢？

一個人的時候過自己的生活，兩個人的時候也各自過生活？？

肚子餓了是唯一明確的方向，我漫步到肯德雞，點了餐，端了餐盤往樓上走，三三兩兩的人群，小孩的吵鬧聲在我耳邊沸騰著，我沒有感覺到煩燥，反而覺得這種人氣很好，我安靜的吃我的炸雞看我的報紙，四週喧嚷的小孩聲壓過了我心裡悲傷的低鳴聲，近日來，就情緒上來說，我並不太快樂，我需要注入一些快樂的聲音在我的心房。

一個小時後，我離開肯德基並外帶了一份餐，在往回家路上走著時，我重新思考著過自己生活的事情，我可以當作我是一個人生活，一個吃飽一個人散步一個人回家去嗎？？

我不會，也不行，我可以一個人吃飯、一個人散步，可是我不會忘了要買一份食物給在家裡的家人，一個人的生活裡其實包含了兩個人。

婚姻裡，有一個很難的部份就是，你不明白什麼時候該一個人，什麼時候又該兩個人？

而女人卻會自然而然的照料跟妳一起生活的人，也許妳照顧不了他的心情，可是妳會顧及他的溫飽。 想著想著，就走到了家門口，我站在門口，有鑰匙卻沒有開門，我按了門鈴，他開了門....
「先生，請問你有沒有叫肯德基外帶全家餐？」我站在門口對他說。
他對我笑而不答。「沒有嗎？我送錯了啊？？」我笑。
他把東西接過手，牽著我的手進了家門。

晚上，他居然帶我去逛了夜市耶，這是一件非常難得的事，因為他超討厭逛夜市，而且，他很有耐心陪我一條一條的逛著，臉上沒有一絲不耐煩。
我想，他明白這是 ------我一個人生活時愛做的事，二個人生活時也希望可以做的事。

如果相遇，你會感到相知，那麼，有一種習慣 ─叫做陪伴。
如果陪伴，你會感到珍惜，那麼，有一種甜蜜 ─叫做存在。
如果存在，你會感到壓力，那麼，有一種善良 ─叫做離開。
如果離開，你會感到輕鬆，那麼，有一種勇敢 ─ 叫做放棄。

忙的時候，想要休息； 渡假的時候，想到未來。
窮的時候，渴望富有；生活安逸了，怕幸福不能長久。
決定的時候，擔心結果不如預期；
看明白了，後悔當初沒有下定決心
不屬於自己的，常常心存慾望；
握在手裡了，又懷念未擁有前的輕鬆
「生命若不是現在，那是何時？」

Who Can Understand ME...?

My 2008 Checklist

I hope I can get those undone matters on the list done
as many as possible next year~

^.^

Coincidence – 偶然

One day in the morning, I received a phone call from some one. He was looking for Valerie, who was Me, I supposed, because he called to my direct line at office and started calling “Valerie”.
ある日の朝、私は誰かから電話を受け取りました。彼はValerieと話したかった。じゃ、もちろんあのValerieが私じゃない？私の会社の直線に電話して、Valerieと呼ばれたから。

Ridiculously, I couldn’t understand what he was talking about. No clue at all.
可笑しいで、彼が何について話しているか理解することができませんでした。全然手掛かりでない。

Albert: Hi, Valerie, this is Albert. Remember the thing bla bla bla…
Valerie: Hi Albert, errmm… wait, what are you talking about?
Albert: err… are you Valerie? I’m Albert, from TTT Company.
Valerie: Yes, I’m Valerie, but I don’t know you.
Albert: hmm… are you Valerie? Valerie XXX?
Valerie: Yes, I’m Valerie, but I’m Valerie SSS. I think you’ve called the wrong number.
Albert: hahaha… but what a coincidence! You’re Valerie too!
Valerie: hahaha… ya right.
Albert: haha.. ok, I’m sorry. Bye.
Valerie: haha.. ok, it’s alright. Bye.

Funny, right?
可笑しいじゃない？

去他们妈妈的两块七毛！！

Hi hi~ I need to use Chinese to write the followings, if you can’t understand, please ask your friends to translate it for you ;) I’m still learning my Chinese though ;p

他媽媽的臭愁鸡蛋！！
猪八戒的粪便外加七毛八分丢回给那些人头猪脑的所谓“大屎”！！哈哈哈。。。
贪得无厌的“狰腐”，去他的两块七！
真的很想拿块猪头放在他们的面前孝敬他们耶！
以上是小的新作- 食物+动物的赞美~！
不好意思耶，小的正在学习华语和运用赞美词，如有纰漏尽情谅解噢。